Triggered

I feel angry I feel scared
I feel naked I feel bare
I am tumbling through dark portals
Into danger and despair
All I wanted in this moment
Was for someone to just care
Or for myself to be seen and loved
And given space and some fresh air.
But here I am alone in bed
With all these thoughts twisting my head
I wish I was dead
Oh wait,


Maybe I’m just
Triggered...


Deep. breathe...
Stop. your. step....
Let the blood flow back
To the logical parts of your head.
Ok, now let’s take a step back
And ask ourselves
What pulled us off course
And set us spinning?
Oh, ok, I see.
You feel lonely and misunderstood?
You feel left out and taken advantage of?
You feel like you’ve always been alone
And you always will...
Oh honey, I can see why that must have been hard.
I’m sorry you felt scared.
I’m sorry you felt alone.
I’m sorry you had to face all that head on
And I’m proud of you for doing your best.
I’m proud of you for taking a deep breath
And giving yourself a rest
And loving yourself enough
To assume the best
And look for your heart deep down
In the mess.


I think I found something worth
Looking for.