For Fear, I Did All

For fear of what they would think,
I put away my ink.

For fear of him getting too near,
I pretended not to hear.

For fear of letting them down,
I stayed put on the ground.

For fear of saying goodbye,
I never got around to saying "hi".

For fear of the dying of the light,
I made my home here in the night.

For fear of the things I can't control,
I dug myself deep in a hole.

For fear of the other opinion,
I never spoke up and just listened.

For fear I was wrong by a mile,
I threw all my doubts in a pile.

For fear I'd be seen as a fool,
I became hard and even quite cruel.

For fear of the aching inside,
I pretended and learned how to hide.

For fear of the pain of new growth,
I protected myself with an oath.

For fear that they'd watch my downfall,
I stayed nose to the dirt and I crawled.

For fear of losing all my friends,
I became weak and empty like them.

For fear of outgrowing my home,
I refused to go outside and to roam.

For fear of seeing with new eyes,
I stayed blind and new things I despised.

For fear of getting lost on the way,
I never set off and just stayed.

For fear of the fire that's inside,
I stopped it out and then laid down and died.

For fear of the restless unease,
I did anything that I pleased.

For fear of admitting I'm wrong,
I sang myself a loud anthem song.

For fear of seeing all the pain,
I put a cloud over my brain.

For fear of feeling like a fake,
I promised never to be awake.

For fear of losing sense of direction,
I stared my whole life at reflections.

But one day I clear saw that my fears were just all,
Endless chains and not family or friends.
I decided to call them the fakes that they are,
And in freedom I've dwelled till the end.