Walls Into Walkways
"I want to turn your walls into walkways"
I felt like Jesus whispered this to my heart last night as I was sitting in bed worrying about our family finances (once again...ugh...) and trying to figure out another grand scheme to try to start earning the money we needed to be in a better place as a family.
I was doodling in my journal again like I've started doing every once in awhile when words just don't seem to say what I'm feeling and I started drawing a brick wall with a ladder running up to the top of it. And then I drew footprint walking along the top of the thick wall and felt like they were Jesus' footprints leading me off the page into some new, exciting adventure. As I looked at the little picture, I knew that He had put the ladder there so that I could climb up it and walk with Him on top of the very same wall that had been set in my way to hinder me on my journey towards freedom.
As I sat there looking at the picture, I felt like Jesus was saying to me, "I am going to turn your walls into walkways... Use every wall as a connection to me and I will show you how to succeed in my kingdom".
This rang a bell in my heart in multiple ways, but one of the main ones was that it reminded me of a similar statement He'd spoken to me last year. I don't remember exactly when it was (but I think I was still pregnant) that He said to me, "I want you to start seeing oceans as pathways".
This statement was based on the story of when He had parted the Red Sea and then later on when He'd stopped the flow of the Jordan river - both times so that He could turn those bodies of water into pathways for His people to walk into freedom and His promises. And it was also based on the image of Jesus walking on top of the water with Peter - walking on wave like they were pavement.
What He meant when He originally said that to me was that He wanted me to start seeing impossible situations through the perspective of His power and provision - to know deep in my heart that there was no situation too big or too impossible for Him to change it in a moment and make a way for me to pass through. He could turn oceans of impossibility into pathways of promise and provision for me as I simply trusted Him and waited for Him to move.
Since that time, I have seen many impossible situations turned on their head and I've seen Him come through for us in ways I never imagined possible. My faith has slowly grown bigger so that things that once would have sent my head spinning with fear and worry now barely raise my heartbeat as I wonder how God will come through this time. As He comes through again and again, I'm learning to trust Him more fully when each new challenge comes my way.
But I'm still far from perfect and my trust is still barely the size of a mustard seed, to the point that I was back at it again last night - worrying myself to death about the future and forgetting all about God's proven promises to provide for our every need.
But thank Jesus He's never mad at me for my immaturity and just to encourage me along, He sent me a completely new picture to hold onto as I continue to walk with Him into the unknown... He is going to turn every wall I come up against into a walkway... And He's not just going to part that Big Brick Wall so that I can walk through it... No, He's going to teach me to climb right onto the top of that thing and stroll along the top in complete victory and let it lead me to my promised land...
And not only that, but He wants to use every single hopeless dead end I come to as a way to connect with me deeper and teach me what it means to have true success in His Kingdom... Amazing.
Only He could be so inexplicably, impossibly good.
I felt like Jesus whispered this to my heart last night as I was sitting in bed worrying about our family finances (once again...ugh...) and trying to figure out another grand scheme to try to start earning the money we needed to be in a better place as a family.
I was doodling in my journal again like I've started doing every once in awhile when words just don't seem to say what I'm feeling and I started drawing a brick wall with a ladder running up to the top of it. And then I drew footprint walking along the top of the thick wall and felt like they were Jesus' footprints leading me off the page into some new, exciting adventure. As I looked at the little picture, I knew that He had put the ladder there so that I could climb up it and walk with Him on top of the very same wall that had been set in my way to hinder me on my journey towards freedom.
As I sat there looking at the picture, I felt like Jesus was saying to me, "I am going to turn your walls into walkways... Use every wall as a connection to me and I will show you how to succeed in my kingdom".
This rang a bell in my heart in multiple ways, but one of the main ones was that it reminded me of a similar statement He'd spoken to me last year. I don't remember exactly when it was (but I think I was still pregnant) that He said to me, "I want you to start seeing oceans as pathways".
This statement was based on the story of when He had parted the Red Sea and then later on when He'd stopped the flow of the Jordan river - both times so that He could turn those bodies of water into pathways for His people to walk into freedom and His promises. And it was also based on the image of Jesus walking on top of the water with Peter - walking on wave like they were pavement.
What He meant when He originally said that to me was that He wanted me to start seeing impossible situations through the perspective of His power and provision - to know deep in my heart that there was no situation too big or too impossible for Him to change it in a moment and make a way for me to pass through. He could turn oceans of impossibility into pathways of promise and provision for me as I simply trusted Him and waited for Him to move.
Since that time, I have seen many impossible situations turned on their head and I've seen Him come through for us in ways I never imagined possible. My faith has slowly grown bigger so that things that once would have sent my head spinning with fear and worry now barely raise my heartbeat as I wonder how God will come through this time. As He comes through again and again, I'm learning to trust Him more fully when each new challenge comes my way.
But I'm still far from perfect and my trust is still barely the size of a mustard seed, to the point that I was back at it again last night - worrying myself to death about the future and forgetting all about God's proven promises to provide for our every need.
But thank Jesus He's never mad at me for my immaturity and just to encourage me along, He sent me a completely new picture to hold onto as I continue to walk with Him into the unknown... He is going to turn every wall I come up against into a walkway... And He's not just going to part that Big Brick Wall so that I can walk through it... No, He's going to teach me to climb right onto the top of that thing and stroll along the top in complete victory and let it lead me to my promised land...
And not only that, but He wants to use every single hopeless dead end I come to as a way to connect with me deeper and teach me what it means to have true success in His Kingdom... Amazing.
Only He could be so inexplicably, impossibly good.
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