nothing really.
Well, it's been quite a while since I've posted on here hasn't it. Let's see here, what golden nuggets of wisdom shall I pass on today...hmmm...
Nope I got nothin.
We've been talking about kingdoms in my youth group this month. Our kingdoms that we build for ourselves here on earth and God's kingdom that He desires for us to be a part of. For example our kingdoms could consist of Facebook, friends, music, sports, school, etc. All those things that we spend our time "building" and pouring ourselves into.
And as we've been doing this study, and through some other experiences I've had recently, I've realized that my kingdom is pride. And the appearance of looking good to everyone around me. This is what I pour myself into and the thing that I want to rule over myself. I don't want God to get in the way of it.
The terrible thing about it is that when I'm close to God, all these things that I do to "look good" just fall into place. Like being kind to people, and being happy, and knowing what to say to people when they are hurting. All these things just automatically happen when I'm spending lots of time with my God.
But it's times like right now, when I'm falling away from Him, that I have to work to do these things. That I actually start to care what I look like to everyone around me and my pride becomes in danger of being compromised. It's times like these when I begin to do things out of duty and not out of love. And I begin to work harder and harder to maintain this mask of perfection I'm hiding behind.
So, hence the introduction to this post. I've got nothing. Because it's also times like these that God humbles me. And shows me how little I truly have to offer on my own.
So forgive me for my masquerading. Forgive me for pretending to have it all together. Forgive me for even beginning to think that I have anything to offer aside from the Love the has been freely given to me.
I've got nothing.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5
Nope I got nothin.
We've been talking about kingdoms in my youth group this month. Our kingdoms that we build for ourselves here on earth and God's kingdom that He desires for us to be a part of. For example our kingdoms could consist of Facebook, friends, music, sports, school, etc. All those things that we spend our time "building" and pouring ourselves into.
And as we've been doing this study, and through some other experiences I've had recently, I've realized that my kingdom is pride. And the appearance of looking good to everyone around me. This is what I pour myself into and the thing that I want to rule over myself. I don't want God to get in the way of it.
The terrible thing about it is that when I'm close to God, all these things that I do to "look good" just fall into place. Like being kind to people, and being happy, and knowing what to say to people when they are hurting. All these things just automatically happen when I'm spending lots of time with my God.
But it's times like right now, when I'm falling away from Him, that I have to work to do these things. That I actually start to care what I look like to everyone around me and my pride becomes in danger of being compromised. It's times like these when I begin to do things out of duty and not out of love. And I begin to work harder and harder to maintain this mask of perfection I'm hiding behind.
So, hence the introduction to this post. I've got nothing. Because it's also times like these that God humbles me. And shows me how little I truly have to offer on my own.
So forgive me for my masquerading. Forgive me for pretending to have it all together. Forgive me for even beginning to think that I have anything to offer aside from the Love the has been freely given to me.
I've got nothing.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15:5
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